by bad blogging habits

I have never been a good blogger.  . . . 

i tend to let it go un-updated for months (even years) at a time.  Why? Well it is simple really it is the same reason I don’t finish a lot of things . . .  I am not important, I am not worthy of voicing my opion, my life, my art, I am nothing.  why should you read this? You shouldn’t.  But I want you too.  I don’t deserve your time.  but here i am trying  . . . again to get myself out there.  i want to meet people.  I am in a small town in Montana where there is only a few women i can call my friends and the don’t really have the same intrests as i do.  which is fine, i love them and i love hanging out with them. i wish, though, that i had friends i could journal with.  i don’t even have online friends to share with . . . i still feel not good enough.  this is all bullshit.  i relize this. 

it is hard to shake you internal critic, especially when they’re shouting at you. 

I’m eating a chocolat chip granola bar and sipping water at work. I will be getting “The Host” by Stephenie Meyer this evening.  i’m going to try to save reading for my trip to atlanta in a week.  i don’t think this will happen.  i just finished “Lonely Werewolf Girl” by Martin Millar.  i suggest you run to your nearest book seller/library and get it now.  it is a wonderful book, great story, excelent action scenes, wonderfully written.  you won’t regret it. 

current loves:    

1. timbuk2 small messenger bags
2. lamy all-star fountain pens
3. sakura gelly roll pens
4. suziblu.com
5. flickr.com
6. spring . . . 
7. soft new grass
8. laying in a hammock with a fuzzy kitty
9. ceiling fans
10. poetry                                                                                           

 

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