here.in.my.head

I have never been a good blogger.  . . . 

i tend to let it go un-updated for months (even years) at a time.  Why? Well it is simple really it is the same reason I don’t finish a lot of things . . .  I am not important, I am not worthy of voicing my opion, my life, my art, I am nothing.  why should you read this? You shouldn’t.  But I want you too.  I don’t deserve your time.  but here i am trying  . . . again to get myself out there.  i want to meet people.  I am in a small town in Montana where there is only a few women i can call my friends and the don’t really have the same intrests as i do.  which is fine, i love them and i love hanging out with them. i wish, though, that i had friends i could journal with.  i don’t even have online friends to share with . . . i still feel not good enough.  this is all bullshit.  i relize this. 

it is hard to shake you internal critic, especially when they’re shouting at you. 

I’m eating a chocolat chip granola bar and sipping water at work. I will be getting “The Host” by Stephenie Meyer this evening.  i’m going to try to save reading for my trip to atlanta in a week.  i don’t think this will happen.  i just finished “Lonely Werewolf Girl” by Martin Millar.  i suggest you run to your nearest book seller/library and get it now.  it is a wonderful book, great story, excelent action scenes, wonderfully written.  you won’t regret it. 

current loves:    

1. timbuk2 small messenger bags
2. lamy all-star fountain pens
3. sakura gelly roll pens
4. suziblu.com
5. flickr.com
6. spring . . . 
7. soft new grass
8. laying in a hammock with a fuzzy kitty
9. ceiling fans
10. poetry                                                                                           

Good Morning! I’m sitting here eating instant grits flavored with a little garlic powder, salt and pepper and after it is all cooked I melt a slice of cheese in it.  Ok not the greatest, but delicious and Yummy! It is one of my favorite quike breakfast.   . . . I’m shopping around for the perfect blog.  So far I like wordpress better, but I don’t know.  I’m such a follower that I don’t know what I want to do.  I’m always looking to someone I admire to copy.  I have some great DIY decorating ideas that I’d like to work up and show off some of my journal pages.  so we’ll see . . . .

 New list of things I love:

1. Glitter

2. color

3. Grits

4. chocolate

5. Physc . . . greatest show

5. stars

A short list of favorite things:

1.  SuziBlu . . . .  I love you! 

2. Bob Dylan . . . . C’mon “Ain’t me, Babe” the best!

3. Christmas Shopping. . . . I love buying gifts

4. Art journaling . . . . my passion

5. Lily . . . . my yellow fat dog.

Things I want:

1.  to be free of having live paycheck to paycheck

2. to not worry about my weight and let 230lbs be ok

3. to be able to be myself with other’s . . .  even online I get nervous

4. to learn html and more web.computer stuff

5. to make a living doing what I love. . . . art

Ok. I have a blog on livejournal that I don’t update only because I tend to forget so we’ll see how this one goes. Although I plan on keeping both open.

Current Obsessions:

youtube. . . .you can catch me there, too . . . . pixeepoet

art journaling . . . visual journal, creative journal or whatever you want to call it.

zines . . . just got Teesha Moore’s “Art & Life” wonderful

suzi blu . . . check her out suziblu.net her video’s are amazing!